The hardest button to button

New clean look. I like this layout--it's fresh and not so restricting. I have found that my posts become rather long so a skinny column doesn't do much for the reader.

Currently listening to: Hey You by Pink Floyd on pandora.com. Pandora is an excellent website for when I am in the lab for animation and have forgotten my iPod. I just type in an artist that I am in the mood for, and out pops tons of songs that fit. For No One by The Beatles.

Today was an odd mix. It started out with me running out of my room down the hall and down the stairs out the front door... to watch my bus drive by. Woops! Not a good start. So I ate breakfast, vanilla soy milk and SmartStart, and caught the next one; I was only 6 minutes late. We talked about mindfulness again, my excessive sleeping.. again, and my current development of having not so many friends. Automatic Stop by The Strokes. I really like the mindfulness strategy, hopefully I can make that work when it needs to. My sleeping? Yeah. Slept 'til 2pm yesterday. Don't get me wrong I LOVE sleeping--it's just that it is starting to actually become embarrassing when I'm late somewhere or my roommate comes back from class and I'm still in bed. I have also found that I am starting to think of it as a waste of time, a waste of a day. Mornings are so peaceful, so full of fresh air and pleasant sounds. The Ocean Breathes Salty by Modest Mouse. In any case, the resulting strategy is this: create a routine in the morning that involves something that I love to do and would just love to get of bed for. "Sacrifice your comfort," she says. "Be willing to leave that warm, comfy bed.. just throw off those covers!" Currently my only idea is to do some morning yoga. Maybe drink some tea and check my email. Sounds like a pretty easy routine right? We'll see. Starting tomorrow. Shiver (Live) by Coldplay. Now, as far as this friend thing goes--I know I have friends. It's just that sometimes I feel a little alone in a crowd. Even with ample opportunity to make new friends or strike up a conversation, all I can think about is "I am such a loner, I have no friends!" I know it isn't true. In fact, I have some really quality friends that I wouldn't trade for the world. None of them were around that day. Oh well, life goes on right?

Starlight by Muse. Resulting goals from session 5:
1. Continue to be mindful
2. Start a morning routine
3. Call acquaintances to hang out and get to know them--provide friends for myself
4. Write down my "pitfalls", (things that are showing signs I am getting depressed again), so that when I am in Italy, I can remember that list, and keep myself in check
5. Make a schedule for when I will talk to my family/friends when in Italy

Heart In A Cage by The Strokes. Words I repeated to myself as I walked the entire way home:
Mindfulness, Consistence, Routine...Mindful, Consistent, Routine. Be mindful, create consistency, start a routine...

The Hardest Button to Button by The White Stripes.

The Bastards Have Landed by Logh. The rest of my day went alright. I finished my final project for a class (a website), and was then 10 minutes late. I told the kid I always sit next to I fell asleep and my roommate came back to our room and woke me. Yeah, so I lied; it didn't hurt anyone did it? In any case, it was my day to present. Fortunately I knew what I was talking about and didn't need to prepare an actual speech. I most likely got an A.

Drink to Moving On by Grand National. Yoga was beautiful tonight. It felt so wonderful. Danielle was so happy to see me. She always leads the most amazing routines that leave me feeling at peace, relaxed, refreshed.. Read My Mind by The Killers. I will miss her soothing voice guiding my practice and her laugh at the end of every class. I have learned a lot from her. The last few classes the sun has been setting over the course of the hour we are there. The windows that span the length of the wall.. and their reflection on the mirror at the side of the room.. Oh man. The natural lighting and the colors are just phenomenal. We are so lucky to have gotten that room at the time that we did. Remind Me by Royksopp.